May 15, 2011

Lord, keep me safe?

I've admitted to Chris a couple of times that I would much more eager to visit Haiti this summer if we didn't have to fly on an airplane to get there. (I don't like flying much at all) This has sparked conversations between us about fear, trust, being held back, and how different the two of us are. Chris fears very little and isn't held back by much (which explains why he loved skydiving) I however am cautious. I like to know what is coming. I've heard many times that statistics say driving a car is much more risky than flying, but it doesn't help my apprehension much. Flying requires trust in a lot that's out of my grasp-the pilot's ability, the maintenance people, the actual plane's structure/functioning, the gas tank that I didn't personally fill, the weather. Logically, it doesn't make much sense to be afraid of flying, but I still don't look forward to getting on that plane June 2 and looking down to see only the blue ocean for a few hours!!
So, do we pray that God will keep us safe? Hmmm. I have prayed that He will. I have also prayed that He will make my desire to obey Him and for eternity with Him greater than anything in this world! Today in church we sang "How great is our God", and there's a line that goes "Time is in your hands, the beginning and the end." I've always taken this to mean the beginning of time and the end of time, but today I think the Lord let me hear it as the beginning of my life and the end of my life- in His hands. Psalm 139 immediately came to mind, "All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be." And then the entire chapter talks about how personally God knows us and the events of our lives. And I felt a surge of trust! Thank you Lord! He is helping me to give this over to Him, one plane ride I have to face at a time! Trusting Him is so hard sometimes, but it's so freeing-almost too good to be true. Thank you Lord that you care enough to put us in situations that we HAVE to lean on you. Help us to do this every day even when we might THINK we are the ones in control!

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